As far as money
is concerned I am therefore minimally motivated. To
me it is not so much about earning money (means of
exchange). To me it is more important to honor the
person. I do want to honor the person, and not so
much the money. Money is not in my interest,
because there is no way to get it under control. I
do not invest energy in matters that I'll never be
able to control. Credit-settlements with the help
of credit-cards and for a government controllable
credit actions create the possibility of
reinforcement and conditioning that are necessary
to arrive at a good and equitable functioning
social order. Banking secrets, uncontrollable
possessions of money, certifies crime too much.
With controllable credit settlements one cannot
steal anymore, only sharing is possible. Openness
makes crime impossible, also computercrime. One can
never spend more creditpoints than were formally
accredited; even when you try to cheat it as much
as you can, the central account must add up. The
shadow it casts is that openness obliges to
responsibility, and to that one must be able to say
no. For myself
I fantasize about a moneyless
world
controlled by credit systems that e.g. reinforce
the interest of a society without alcohol,
cigarettes, eating meat (and other abuse of living
beings) and sexual abuse. But if one would forbid
these weaknesses by means of the law, then my life
would have no meaning anymore either. All the gold
in the vaults of the world may as far as I am
concerned be confiscated by the government to be
melted for free weddingrings that in case of
separation have to be returned. Maybe more people
want to marry normally if one is not fined for it,
but rewarded. Maybe the government can even arrange
for a marriage subsidy to reinforce that kind of
normal and wanted behavior. The most important
product of the enterprise that is The State (the
World State?) as I would like to see it, is order
and the wellbeing and the peace of all
participants. In fact I fantasize about a formal
order that at the level of the state functions the
way a family does in the care for her
members. N.B.:
Also see renown
ego's
for a more personal vision on the history of the
ego: the ego as a time-organizer. The page gives
information about - and lays a link between those
historical celebrities with which I can identify
myself and about which I can say: these are the
lives that could have led to the life I am living
now (also interesting for the ones believing in
reincarnation).
ABOUT
MYSELF
MY
PERSON
My
name is
Renatus, Petrus, Bernardus, Antonius Meijer, or
simply called René. I was
born
the 23 of september 1954
in Breda (in the south of the Netherlands). I am
male (the first time my parents achieved this, they
had two girls already). My father, as a loyal
catholic, gave me this many names because in the
Netherlands Meijer is a very common name. That way
I would be more easily to recognize (did that
happen yet?). Well, I can also call myself a master
as I managed to graduate from a college education
at the University of Groningen ( in the north of
the country). Of course I followed an interesting
course: psychology.
My (deceased) father was a child-psychologist, so
that's why. In my puberty he said: You can always
go to the art-academy (my first choice) when you're
older, but for studying you might later on lose the
appetite. Therefore I followed as good as I could
my second choice for psychology in stead of my
first choice for (graphical) drawing. At high
school I had nothing but the highest grades for my
drawings. So I wanted to go the art-academy. Did my
father save my sane mind? Read more about it
below!
About
my
civil status I
can say that I am unmarried. I had a couple of
relationships, of which one lasted for seven years
living together. Because of my convictions it never
came to a marriage. My life developed that
dynamically that in fact no steady partner could
follow me. I have always chosen to develop my love
for knowledge, in stead of my love for the material
of sex and money. For that love I also participated
in all kinds of social organizations that gave
priority to a certain type of knowledge. That where
the University, where mainly I only have studied, a
postdoctorate study for independent practicing and
further spiritual and religious forms of
togetherness (ashrama's , monasteries, meditation
centers etc). From the background of my behavioral
studies
I always took a lot of interest in cult
activities,
wondering about the human motivation behind it. Why
do people do things like that?, what is missing in
our society and what goes wrong with all those
ideals? For that reason I visited a number of
spiritual communities reminiscent of the biblical
dictum " investigate all and keep the good of it".
I was/took part in the Sai Baba - movement, the
Hare Krsna movement, the Rajneesh movement and
worked in A New Age center. Nowadays I practice
independently a combination of yoga and western
convictions. As a psychologist
I
stopped years ago practicing psychotherapy.
I
consciously decided so
finding
myself more suitable for the free self-realization
I suggested to my clients always. Practice what you
preach. People still
can visit me
for my Yoga.
But everyone who wants to know I say in front that
I am more interested in talking as in doing
gymnastics. And then everybody leaves me alone. I
am honest, so be it. I rather prefer everybody to
be happy with his own self-realization not
bothering anyone about how that should be done. I
strive for a world where everyone is sufficiently
educated, schooled and informed to cope with that
as an adult.My
servitude
therefore is found at the creative
level. I
develop all kinds of ideas and applications with
which I can live very well myself and of which I
presume others might benefit also. An example is
The
Order of Time,
an internet site that figures as a participation
platform where everybody can participate with his
creative efforts, without being directly hindered
by the ego. Because of that I do not sign for The
Order personally (and someone else, even if it
where the Lord Himself), cannot dominate it either,
but for being a
friend.
If The Order rules the world, it is not me who does
so, but that what I stand for, together with the
people who also have sympathy with it. And if I
would be the only one that would shape the The
Order, even then I
do not consider myself the one who has done it
all. The
servant of something can impossibly be that
something himself. That something can exist thanks
to the love of in fact the whole of society that
made it possible. So who is there to thank
for?Economically
I practically exist of
what
the government thinks is
suitable as a
thanks for my work delivered. Since I need rather a
lot of freedom to pursue my goals, I usually live
on social security, unless I sell some of my
creative work or when I am appreciated for other
services. I do not see myself as unemployed, but as
a state-official with a minimal job-description and
a maximum of dedication. Greater freedom does not
imply a lesser sense of responsibility. The
government may check my duties, and I let myself
being paid for it. Money, to me, is more an
expression for the degree to which I turned in my
freedom. I am in favor of the liberated person,
therefore in favor of the minimal adaptation reward
called social security checks, for which other
norms and values are held as for the so called
salary. Often I worry about this practice of double
standards, but from within the ideals of The Order
of Time, I can still see a future in it. It is
after all not possible to be all part of the same
Order, since everybody in his life sooner or later
wants to try an alternative or the opposite as a
necessary psychological (political?) counterweight
(with no differences no consciousness < or
democracy?>). When the whole world would be in
Order, then we would have the difference between
people who stay home and people who travel the
cosmos or something like that. To discriminate is
dangerous, but still of life importance. That field
of tension to me is the result of the necessity of
conscious choice and control. What
I want is the following: I want a
world
government
with a sufficient sense of responsibility to save
this planet from a complete downfall. In my opinion
we've lost control in our relationship with
nature.The population cannot increase endlessly as
long as we are on this planet and we cannot
continue on old methods when we need to feed more
and more people and need to organize ourselves more
and more. The climate is changing and we do not do
all the necessary that can be done because the
forces are not joined lacking
a common concept of
order. Nor
can we abolish the existing order and everything we
have worked for. For the chaos in the world I want
a democratic
world government that by the rule of majority can
take the right decisions. In order to do so there
is needed a good and efficient non-destructive
ideologically sound information culture as e.g. the
internet, so that each world citizen has the
freedom himself to choose in consideration of the
alternatives. What I also want is:
no
taxes, no police and no
armies. In
stead of that I want a
formal order
that
has a clear credit- policy of reinforcing and
conditioning on
a rational basis with a clearly described purpose.
In concrete: the army must be part of a formal,
also civil order of social control (one cannot
escape from that, so face it), in which is clearly
described against what one is fighting. As the
common
enemy one can
recognize
ignorance so
that the strife is about free available information
and how a culture like that should be propagated.
This in general. Practically the enemy must take
the form of a problem that can be recognized by the
whole of mankind (about which one agrees
democratically). This e.g. can be the world food
situation, or the
desertification.
One e.g. could say: let the N.A.S.A. first rule the
planet as if it was a spaceship, before they go
ahead on the Moon or Mars, and let all the military
of the world be their personnel. Thus: clearly
recognizable formal identities that together take
the responsibility for the food, the clothing, the
housing and the
climate-control (by
means of vegetation). When N.A.S.A. gets the
assignment to cultivate and populate all deserts
and use all the military in the world for it, then
for the time being we will be busy enough on this
planet and on the proper way.
Of
course this formal order (e.g. called the W.A.S.O.
, the World Association of Social Order) must
subscribe to a common discipline to preclude
internal and external conflicts of power. This
discipline can only rest upon the concept of free
participation to that W.A.S.O.: no one can be
obliged to it, even if it is to your own free
choice the job of your life. The discipline itself
cannot be alienated from the common denominator of
all humanities disciplines in the world, including
the scientific disciplines. That means that one has
to derive from a harmony-model
of free access and free negation. That harmony
model must be ecologically
conscious, meaning
not in conflict with nature but scouting it in a
conscious and creative way without destroying it.
Clocks for
instance may be in accord with the position of the
sun like calendars being in accord with that
division of clock-time, but according to The Bible
(and the democracy) it can never be imposed on
mankind by means of a minority vote. Even as a
minority everybody must be free at all times to say
yes or no against it.(otherwise we will be of
'Beast Number Four' according to the dream of
Daniel 7:25).I
am not convinced that I can change the world on my
own. But I am
convinced of it either that I can stop that change
(for the worse eventually). The thing I am
convinced of is that I can direct my own change in
the proper direction and that I can creatively
adapt myself to changing times without getting
possessed by the devil (the anger, the passion,
lust, deceit and lies). I am also convinced that I
can give the proper example to others and that that
can do good to the world. I am a healthy person who
does not believe in being a sinner (which I think
is unhealthy or insane).
As
far as I am concerned I am
holy to my
own standards, but I do consider myself a
profiteer
of society, just as I consider others to be as
such. That benefit that I and others derive from
society obliges me to deliver a counter-service. I
am unhappy or even (mentally)
ill
when I do not succeed to accomplish that
service, as
then I feel like a thief about everything that I
possess or even am able to do. I am convinced that
it is a collective mental health interest to stay
ahead of the madness of warfare and to cure from it
before it destroys the world as ravaging as a
contagious disease (like the Plague did in the
Middle Ages breaking out every thirty years).
Therefore
I am in favor of systematically appreciating one
another in a type of
culture
(notably via de media, but also very necessarily
directly so now and then).
I
believe in one God and imagine me to that the
Almighty Time that
subdues and conditions all living creatures in the
form of an omnipotent, omnipresent and all-knowing
Order no one is able to change, whatever
time-settings one tries.
God
to me is
considering a form rationally simply
the
power and reality of good collective and individual
habits of life,
you simply have to believe in.
Not
believing or doubting all
kinds of human habits is of course also of
importance, as habits however considered as being
good can also imply a resistance against God or
natural changes (evolution?). It is e.g. a good
habit to take useful vitamins by means of eating a
meat-dish. But it is a bad habit to maintain at all
cost that that meat-eating is therefore necessary
or harmless as if there wouldn't exist an other,
more healthy, source of vitamins (and proteins)
that would rely less on abuse (unnecessary
destruction) of other living beings.
An
other example is
sex: it is a
good habit to
let go sexually and to stay
spontaneous,
but it is a bad habit to uphold that that wouldn't
be in need of a settlement
in the form of a marriage or steady
relationship
that would associate the sex with a purpose: namely
the formation of a bond for the sake of (e.g.?)
breeding offspring. I believe that
a
certain tolerance for
polygamy to a
great extend can liberate society of neglect in
extramarital sexual relations. When one is not
convinced of the necessity of the need of
biological procreation and when one is not willing
to marry, polygamy of others wouldn't form an
objection. Maybe we will be better people if it is
not always about the primitive notion of the
'highest status' of the animal selfinterest of
procreation and everything else thereto, but if for
a change we also would be concerned about the
'highest status' of delivering a cultural
contribution (possibly a more important form of
delivering a 'byproduct').
Concerning
the personal
aspect of God,
the Lord, His associates and His cultures
(religions), I am convinced of one Lord that time
and again takes another form for different
cultures, era's and climes. Thus in India I am a
Hindu, in Arabia a Muslim, in China a Confucianist,
with taoistic-buddhistic sympathies, around the
mediterranean sea a roman person and in the rest of
the free West a reformed greco-roman scientifically
cultured 'believer' with a healthy european
inclination towards free nature (worship of the
sun, forests and the sea). I consider religion a
school of learning for the independence of a unique
selfrealization. As a christian,
e.g.
I do not attend to church
anymore, but
I will not deny His person either (not to speak
about other religious identities of mine). From a
practical point of view I prefer to be engaged in
yoga-activities and the spiritual discipline(s)
that go with it. Devotional activities in temples,
mosques and churches I consider more for the sake
of a refresher course in case of warfare (or more
personal conflicts as e.g. a power conflict within
a marriage). During peace-time
I do not feel the urge
for it. Psychotherapy
as an
alternative form of lay-care I consider
without
doubt useful,
but I think about it as I do about religious care:
it is important to see the end, the limitations and
side-effects thereof (fanaticism because of a lack
of philosophy or dryness lacking
commitment).
I
love animals,
but
only in the freedom of nature. I
love
plants
a lot, provided that they know to manage
themselves. I also
love
people
provided that they do not demand too much of me or
are bothering me otherwise (I am not really fit for
the job of psychotherapy). I like to conform to the
expectations, but then it must be according a
system of proper
agreements like
e.g. proposed by The
Order of Time.
I love nice vegetarian
food and
also like
to cook at times according a
recipe
of my own or of the vedic kitchen. I don't like
cigarettes myself, nor when smoked by others,
eating meat and alcohol and drinking coffeine
coffee or black tea. I
do love hash, but
only as a medicine for when I have fallen in love,
or else it would only dull me. I
do
love woman
but feel myself a bit too old for it to seriously
chase them these days. The 25th anniversary of that
kind of activities wouldn't be a great party. So
let's forget the sexist motivation. I am glad to be
able to respect people for their humanity without
considering them a sexobject or -competitor.
Nevertheless I
loved sex (but
only lasting heterosexual with someone else as
opposed to the experimental past) and used to like
the idea of putting some children on the world when
I would have had the chance for it also to take
care of them and educate them to a tradition of
family-bound honor (a wifeand a life I thus never
found to it). But 2005 past my fiftieth birthday I
no longer consider it responsible to make babies
being that old. My chldren must have a father also
at an advanced age.
In
my free time
I prefer to occupy myself with
music.
In
the past, during my college
education
I
used to play the guitar for
hours
to
compensate for the dry bookknowledge (I am in favor
of what Da Vinci held: to balance art with science
is the proper strategy of health management for the
lateral brain). After having been in love, that
quickly became less, upon which I started to
experiment with a digital piano. Combined with a
computer now I
have found a nice way to make
music
without directly having to sweat for the control
over an instrument (which spoils to my idea the joy
of making music). Singing
I liked to
do religiously
and
for
the Order I did develop this love
further.Further
I like to go to the
cinema
and
watch films and documentaries on t.v. (also other
programs, commercials or music clips sometimes).
Sometimes
I write about it,
analyzing the films the way Freud analyzed
dreams.Dancing
I also like, although I
no longer can chase young woman for that kind of
thing. I do not like to reflect on my age, but do
have to take some responsibility for my age. As far
as dancing is concerned I will let go if I get a
chance. During a pop-concert or something alike on
evenings for adults.As
a sport I like to swim,
and for years in my youth I practiced
Judo.
I
also played basketball
for while , played some
tennis,
squashed
and have regularly walked the park. Ever since I
found the harmony and control of
yoga
nothing much of these sportive activities happens
anymore (I am a vegetarian now, so I can take it
more easy). I
still like to ride the
bicycle
though.Despite
of my college
education
only rarely
I
read
printed books
these days (only
internet e-books and
articles).
Stacks of paper make me desperate and turn my hair
gray. Since the computer and the internet I finally
know what my objections against printed material
are: it is a hopeless, inefficient, possessive and
destructive kind of lusty voodooculture. Nor do I
listen to records that much anymore, despite of my
love for music. I no longer collect records, books
or photographs since I sold everything to be able
to travel the woprld in the eighties. The
15th
Cakra day
I have as a day for studying. and I normally watch
t.v. in the evening (except for the
7th
and 14th Cakra
day, because then I go down town). I do for a
change listen to the
radio
or a
c.d.
I spend whole (working-) days (with a maximum of
twelve hours) at my computer as well as for fun
(maximally six hours) as for my work - is it a
hobby? (also maximally 6 hours). In the past in my
adolescence I used to draw a lot, especially
graphic drawings. That I do not do anymore except
for some
internet graphics
with my computer. I'd like to spend more time on
surfing the internet, but normally I'm too busy
except for study days. I think the internet is the
ideal medium for creative and culture-loving
people.to:
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